I used up the summer controlling people [in a video game]. I made him handsome and tall and I made her patent the peanut -size sheath that keeps umbrellas open that keeps them from collapse. She got picked up for work in a mint green Datsun each morning and one day I made him drop his soft wallet in the street and I made her DING DING hurtle after him like a sneeze. I watched their nailless fingers touch and then I intervened because god! think of a pursuit less fruitful than affinity! I made them go about their days. He married a dentist and she died young and he ran down his years evading the diagnoses of bruxism and she died young. Neither handed the damp debasement of a life spent wanting. Their lives were lilac aldehyde there was no asbestos slung behind their walls. Now Autumn
is here and I need a life soft-edged with heart motif a small girl’s ring-bound notebook. I need insight. It oozes from the corners navy damp DING DING You’re a product of your choices you’re a totem pole you’re hunger on top of caprice on top of the grazed cheeks of debauched nights spent folded your face in the gravel like an animal. I decide to fix things I streamline my practices. I wear a yellow mini dress in an always temperate clime. My house is pristine now and if not I’ll eat or fuck or swim to lessen the scores of it all. I’ll buy a dog and then I’ll teach that dog to die and when it does my children will be prepared for everything in the world and then – when my life is panacea smooth – a new person will enter the game through the back door DING DING yes it is attainment and we’ll dance. We’ll dance to the open fire on the stove top to the graceless wordless music to all the things I mistook for the sky and we’ll dance to the entombed cockatoo moans of my dog – buried neat beneath the geranium bush.
by Susannah Dickey
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‘a black cloth over your face isn’t the same as night’ is copyright © Susannah Dickey, 2020 and is reprinted here from bloodthirsty for marriage (Bad Betty Press, 2020) by permission of Bad Betty Press. You can read more about the pamphlet and buy a copy on the Bad Betty website.
Notes from Bad Betty Press:
There is an arresting and profound specificity to Susannah Dickey’s astute tragicomedy, in which the sky is ‘the colour of a cous cous salad’, gods rub shoulders with video game characters and everyone is enslaved to desire.
Corrupting the classically male, reportedly frivolous hendecasyllabic form, Dickey forges a register that feels both ancient and millennial. At the centre of this work beats a star-bright pain, seen through the poems’ breezy vacillations and squandered love, crushed to a shimmer. You can find out more about the pamphlet and buy a copy on the Bad Betty website.
Susannah Dickey is the author of three pamphlets, bloodthirsty for marriage (Bad Betty Press, 2020), I had some very slight concerns and genuine human values (The Lifeboat). Her first novel, Tennis Lessons, was published in July 2020 by Doubleday. You can follow Susannah on Twitter.
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